so.. i've definitely been MIA. but i'm still here :) wedding things are kind of changing and changing as we go on, and all the stuff we thought were 100% aren't. the date is still the same, but nothing else is. we're probably having a reception now, and it will more than likely be outdoors if we can find the perfect location.

i realized sometimes i have to just let go and let things happen. and yes, our wedding is supposed to be about US- just ward and i- it will more than likely be about us and our families. and i'm okay with that. hey, if they're paying for it, they get to have opinions. i've been all caught up in the details and every little specific thing, and i've come to realize that its about the bigger picture. ward and i will be married on june 11.. and that's really all that matters. don't get me wrong, i want our wedding to be beautiful. but its about our marriage not about our wedding. and right now i'm at the point where i'd let someone else plan it and i'll just show up.. all i care about is that i'll be marrying my best friend in the world and we'll be happy :)

plus, there are tons of other frustrating details to worry about. like where we're going to live. and, once again, looking at the bigger picture, that's a little more important than where we're having a wedding or reception. we've toured some modular homes and some other places, and looked at a lot of books and websites, and wrote lots of side notes and questions, and i'm sure we'll come to a decision soon. we need to. then its off to all the scary, intimidating details. like a loan. ahh.

anyway, i just wanted to update everyone on why i haven't really blogged all kinds of planning details. because there aren't any right now.. but other than all that stressful stuff, life is good :) my sister was here for 10 days with my beautiful niece and we had a really good time. its summer, i'm tan, i'm in love, and i'm happy :)

I haven't had much to blog about lately, and I still don't really, but I just wanted to pop in and say hi, I'm still alive :)

Wedding planning has become.. Stressful. And some things might be changing, not sure yet. We aren't 100% sure about what we're going to do and when we're going to do it. We just know we want to get married haha ;) There might not be any changes at all, but for right now, its up in the air.

So keep me in your prayers. I'm going insane, my head is spinning. And I might have a nervous breakdown :)